Below The Surface, My Alter Ego Was A Ticking Time Bomb…

 

From modest roots in the suburbs of New Jersey, Jason Portnoy followed a script carefully crafted by society and found himself in the middle of the PayPal Mafia, launched into a Silicon Valley career of wealth and prestige he never dreamed of.

Stock options, flashy cars, an amazing family. On the outside, his life looked perfect, but unhealed traumas from his past left him tortured; descending into a dark world of pornography and sex that eventually pushed him to the edge.

In Silicon Valley Porn Star, Jason willingly shares his personal transformation from a life of extramarital affairs and superficial excess to one of chosen values and renewed relationships. His journey sheds light on a crisis of masculinity in our modern world, where quests for unlimited power and success are gateways to addiction, dependency, and unhinged behavior. No matter your profession or position in life, Jason’s story will inspire you to look within and find your own path toward success, fulfillment, and becoming the man you truly want to be.


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What People are Saying

As men, we unconsciously pursue wealth, power, and sex to heal our inner wounds and compensate for our own insecurities. In the process, we deny ourselves the love and connection we crave while sabotaging our lives. Jason vulnerably shares his journey and the true cost of this denial. His courage is both an inspiration and a wake-up call for men.

Lucas Krump

Co-Founder & CEO, EVRYMAN

Lucas Krump

It troubles me as a developmental psychologist that boys now receive their first sex education from pornography, and that sex industries of all kinds exploit their vulnerability by offering increasingly provocative, dehumanized content. To encourage the humanity of our men and to end gender-based abuse and violence, we must acknowledge how this content shapes the minds, attitudes and behavior of our boys. Jason’s courageous and powerful story helps to reveal these truths, and I heartily recommend it to all who wish for a fairer, healthier world.

Michael Reichert

PhD, author of How To Raise A Boy:
The Power of Connection to Build Good Men

Michael Reichert

What immediately struck at my heart, as I began to read Jason's triumphant book, is just how real, raw and beautifully vulnerably he shared his journey. This stayed with me through every sentence and chapter until I reached the very last word. As I read, I was catapulted 'heart first' into Jason's life as if I was experiencing it myself, and that's the exquisite power of this book! There are so many gems, and too many to count. If you've ever struggled with any addiction or have been on the receiving end of loving an addict, then this book is for you!

J. Meyers

Amazon book review

J. Meyers

This book is truly captivating and manages to engage the reader from the very beginning. Despite the vast differences in our lives, I was surprised to find that Jason's experiences were incredibly relatable. From his struggles with addiction to overcoming intergenerational trauma, I found myself identifying with many aspects of his journey.

Lisa Benson

Amazon book review

Lisa Benson

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